The months took their time, as I knew they would;
I never glowed like they told me I should.
Depression, it came and it went as it pleased,
And I still couldn't bring myself to get on my knees.
Still angry inside, the day finally came;
I bore my child in considerable pain.
The doctor smiled and my heart flipped with joy
When he said, “You were right; you’ve got a boy.”
I held him and everything melted inside.
My arms ached for more; I could not lay him aside.
My love for this child was just so intense,
The feelings gone by didn't make any sense.
If I’d had a picture of this miracle in life,
I wouldn’t have bothered with the tears and the strife.
I wouldn’t have asked God, “Why do this to me?”
My question would have been, “Do I deserve Thee?”
I Thank you, oh thank you for this wonderful gift!
He’s already given my life a great lift.
What started as a blessing in disguise
Only to show me who truly is wise.